Life right now seems to be on a steady downward spiral toward nothing. Every little thing that is going on seems to piss me off, all the drama between my friends, the hatred they feel for one another, my parents (shocker) and just every little thing. Lets start with my friends. We used to get along fine then one little miniscule argument happened and boom everyone exploded with what seemed like anger that had been building up and up till finally they all just blew at the same time. I guess that my anger- toward what I don't know- has been building up too and it's about to bubble over the top rim and cascade down the mountain and scorch everyone standing at the bottom. 
I love my friends I really do but they all have changed they all grow and separate, and I guess it's just teen age nature to hate someone (doesn't matter who) just for the sake of hating. Maybe the person who is hated did something to cause every one to hate him/her or maybe they were just sitting around one day and someone decided that they were gonna hate on them. Or maybe it didn't start like that at all maybe there is some underlying cause in the hater that just makes them want to hate or for that matter in the hated, their personality or their actions may have caused them to be the hated or hate. Whatever the reason I guess it's just HUMAN nature to do so.  On a side note if you are reading this please don't be angry I don't hate you I don't really hate anyone and thinking back we used to be good friends and I would absolutely hate if when we look across the room at each other that one of us is full of hatred so please if you ever read this I don't hate you, and I'm sorry.
 On to my parents, well what more need I say? What teenager hasn't at some point been completely fed up with there parents that their only wish is that they get to leave this crap hole of a house and this dead end of a town and move far away, as far away as they can possibly get. I don't hate my parents but just sometimes and especially now they piss me off, it seems the older I get the more restricitions are being put on me and it's all just weighing me down. Each and every new rule is just another brick placed on the board lying on top of me and the more they stack the closer I get to being squished. Squished between this and that doesn't -in my view at least- seem like a fitting way to die. 
All I want at this point, something that could make the bubbling stop and spare the people at the bottom of the hill all I want is to be left alone to be given freedom. I'm not talking live on my own freedoms I'm talking teenage freedoms, freedoms that allow me to be a teenager. I want to make a few bad choices and I want to learn from them. Is that really so hard to understand? I mean come on. I just want my parents to trust me enough to go to a party and or even go to a friends house with out being suspicious of me "fucking my boyfriend" while I'm there. Like seriously I've never done anything bad and they still don't trust me. My friends who've ran away and called the cops on their own parents before have more freedoms than me. So that just leads me to believe that my parents don't think they can trust me, and yes I get the whole "oh were just trying to protect you from the mistakes we've made" but honestly those were mistakes that they made and I will not make the same ones, and you know what I sound like a whiny little bitch because I'm ranting about friends and parents and you know what you don't have to read my blog! All I want is some fucking freedom and not to be what when who where and why because it doesn't matter.